It’s been a while


Its been a while since I have done any writing either on here or on any of my books. I really havent felt like writing, things have actually been pretty good.

For Christmas I was given a gift card for BCF for fishing gear, which is awesome. I have spent a lot of time fishing since then. I find it very calming, a great way to relax. Ive only caught a few under sized bream but its not so much about the catch as it is about the relaxation.

I have been dealing with life a lot better of late. I havent had the overwhelming compulsions, the level of intrusive thoughts that I used to. I am managing my anxiety far better than I used too, though there are times where I struggle with it all but for the most part I am far better off than I have been for many years.

The costs of medications, doctors and all the other costs do add up. Some times it makes things tough and like most people I worry about money, but I have been dealing with that anxiety so much better than I used too.

Dont get me wrong its not all peaches and cream, I still have my moments. There are days where my mood swings are insane, one moment quite content with things, next completely and over overwhelmingly frustrated. There are days where it is pretty difficult to deal with the fluctuations in my mood, they are less regular than they used to be. However, it’s different now I have less tolerance, for a lack of a better word, for the struggle the mood swings present. It’s like because its not so in my face, not as intense when I have a bad day its like getting hit by a semi-trailer.

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About malensteptoe
I am work for one of Australia's big 4 banks in the System Admin Team. I am also a mental health sufferer. Currently diagnosed with OCD, MDD, Panic Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, Agoraphobia and Trichotillomania. I also write books and a blog. I am an advocate for change of the view towards mental health sufferers. We can and are beneficial people in society, with much to offer and contribute. We are not all violent, actually the percentage of violent tendencies in the mentally ill and those without mental illness are no different. You may work with someone right next to someone with mental illness and never know. So maybe it's time to re-evaluate your opinions?

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